Oh dear, no wonder.....

God bless you - You are amazing in His sight, never forget that!!! He created you in His image, and we all have a Purpose!!!

Hello my friends, it has been a long but meaningful day - a couple of nights ago I read 1 of my old journals (it dates from 1994 - 1995 - Amazing indeed). When I read it, I realized, that I literally had asked God to turn my life around.....and to touch the people in my sphere of influence, family and friends.....that I may be molded more and more into his likeness and that He would use me according to His plan. Wow, when I read this, I felt such deep gratitude - despite the pain that the last almost 2 decades have brought for me - He has heard my prayers and He has granted me so many of the ones, that I wrote down in this book. I am absolutely flattered at the extend my prayers were answered - He has turned me inside out and changed me from head to toe......Thank you God, I am so happy that you have been so faithful in doing the work in me - had I known all the pain, that this path would bring.....would I have asked for it, if I were given the chance to do it all over again - the answer is: YES, I absolutely would!!! For despite the tears, the grief and the pain, I have been given far more - I have been given the greatest gift of all: that of being myself, fully and completely, just the way, God created me - and the most incredible relationship with the lover of my soul - nothing compares to this....  - it is definitely worth the pain. 

Friends, trust me, God is absolutely amazing - and gentle, when He whispers to your soul - the discipline of the Heavenly Father is so much easier to take, than the criticism of the people around you - God always has your best interest at heart - the people might not....they might actually use you for their own selfish agenda - whereas God wants you to be fully you and live out the purpose He handcrafted for you long before the world was created, without having to hide yourself behind many many masks and walls, that you have put up out of fear of not measuring up......well, here is the amazing news, if you let God work in you, you will not be disappointed, you will not need to be afraid to fail - for all things are possible for Him, who believes, and through Christ we can do all things.....

Wow, I am simply in awe - when I read my journal, I can tell, he took me seriously, and stripped me of all the things that could have had me turn to the world instead of to Him. I had to completely hand the reins of my life over to Him, before I could see all the many blessings, that He has granted me.

When I was on the MWS Cruise, one night I was up very very early - there was this most beautiful star/moon constellation......that made me cry in it's beauty and meaning - when I thanked Him for this gift, I heard the Holy Spirit whisper back to me: Thank you, for coming out here on deck, to see and receive it - and that is true, I was debating, if I really should get up and leave the cabin and my warm and cozy bed......yet I could sense the nudging of the Holy Spirit, that I had to go outside - it was the night before I was going to sing with Michael on stage.....and in my heart, I heard the song resonating in my soul, that I had chosen to sing with Michael W. Smith 'Straight to the Heart' - my absolute favourite song - which blended in with 'Great is Thy Faithfulness' - today I understand the meaning of these two songs intertwined - especially in front of the backdrop of my old journal.

Thank you Jesus, you brought me full circle - back to you.......into the heart of God - thank you, I am absolutely speechless - Hallelujah, grateful, that I don't have to talk, just to write.....that's much easier ;).

I don't really know, if I am making any sense at all - I actually might not - but all I can say right now, I am thrilled to tell you, that God has heard every single prayer that I wrote into my journals......and He has pretty much granted them all - except a few......somehow I can't but wonder, if these might still be granted one day.....???

I shall keep you posted, my friends - God is good - ALL THE TIME!!! 

Be blessed and know, that your prayers are heard - and answered in His time - always know, that when certain things don't happen, the way you would like them to happen, He might just be protecting you from taking the wrong path, or He might just be preparing something far better for you, than what you have asked Him for.

With Love straight from my heart to yours!!! Amen