Answers......

God bless you - You are amazing in His sight, never forget that!!! He created you in His image, and we all have a Purpose!!!

Good Morning my friends......still recuperating.....still somewhat deaf, but definitely better. I had to rest and rest some more and still rest some more......God truly showed me, that whatever it was, that my poor body dealt/deals with, takes a lot of rest to put back together..... - even if this is the most foreign thing for me to do..... - I am doing it.....and I must say, it's good for me. I sleep lots and lots, and I know none of the things I am not doing today, will not be there when I am all rested up and healthy again......Nothing is so urgent, that it cannot wait - Health comes first. And this bug has gotten me good - but it's more than just a cold or a nasty virus, it's God reaching in and rewiring my entire thinking patterns (He has done a lot of this already over the last year and a half), but I think this false belief needs some serious work.....so I stay put.....

He has given me some deeper insight again: Even though we might attach certain thinking patterns to certain people in our lives, because they are treating us or have treated us a certain way - and we then think we have to break free of them, and give them a piece of our mind - well, that is WRONG again!!!! It's never the people themselves, it's our thinking pattern, that has allowed them to walk all over us, treat us disrespectfully or whatever else the behavioural pattern might be, that matches our thinking pattern, our false belief. 

It points back to us, and tries to help us, to detect the false belief and rectify it/ask God to help us rectify it, cause we cannot do this ourselves - yet He can......that's what He is doing, if we let him, and not try to do things our own way.....

I know exactly what my false belief was, and I know where it came from......and who was holding the space for this false belief, to be there, until I could see it clearly for what it was, and finally give it to God - let him take my heart into His loving hands again, and heal it even more deeply.

It's like an onion, the more skin you peel away, the more finer skins appear and more needs to be peeled away. I don't know any other, I could trust more with doing this peeling away the hurting layers of my hurting and broken heart - it's Jesus - He is ever so gentle and He never hurts me intentionally, it's always the same, because He knows, that these layers need tending, so that I can receive the life He has for me - and He has it more abundantly at the ready for me - if I can receive all He has.

With this last breakthrough - breaking through this sick body of mine, screaming into my now slowly recuperating ears, that my thinking was so off, that He needed to fix this false belief, before we could go any further - and luckily, over the last year or so, He has taught me, to really listen within, to ask Him, what He is trying to teach me with this circumstance or the other....... to let Him guide me to where I need to go......and just wait for the answers......they come - they always do.

Please my friends, I am hoping that you will not estrange yourself from people you have known for a long time, just because your own perception tells you to do that because they continue to hurt your feelings - and I am not talking about physical violence......if that is your reality, then you have to seek help and you need to leave the person, that is physically hurting you - I am talking that we often throw the baby out with the water.......and that we draw boundaries around or for people, who actually just function as a catalyst, for us to search deeper, to dive deeper into our soul, the stuff we are truly made of......remember, Beth Moore says: The people that drive us absolutely crazy - they're there for a reason, and they are supposed to drive us absolutely crazy - until we get the message they're trying to convey!!!!

Prayer is always a good start, to help us find this message, when we turn to God and ask, God, what is it, you want us to learn from this hurt, this encounter, this pain, this circumstance - we are on a very good path. 

Lately I changed a few parameters around here......due to the nudging of the Holy Spirit - He showed me, that it's not so important to say 'I am sorry' if we have offended someone or hurt someone - it's more important, that we ask forgiveness (that puts us at the mercy of the other) - and 'I am sorry' has been well over used and after a while means only half of what it stands for......

I put it in action with my children......and even though I had said, I am sorry for this or that, that I had done wrong, in the past, when I sat down in front of them, and asked their forgiveness for when I hurt their feelings......tears welled up in my eyes, and the whole thing got a brand new meaning - it was a far deeper moment, than any 'I am sorry' could have ever generated. We sometimes use 'I am sorry' even flippantly - so from now on, we're using the new format. 

When my son had a hard time, doing it (it's all due to a rebellious spirit, and an unwillingness to obey - maybe also to pride and/or hidden shame and guilt) - I told him, how important it is, to start the ripple.....how great it is, to be the first to start the ripple effect, and I showed him, that I meant it, by calling my mother, who I know I have often wronged with an impatient attitude, and who, even though I knew in my heart, that she meant well, I have treated wrong over the years, and I never really had asked her forgiveness - I have apologized and I have said I am sorry, but this was a different call to action - so I called her, and asked her to forgive me for the times when I hurt her feelings and for all the times I treated her wrongly......she cried and I cried - and I think it's been a milestone in our relationship. It's been very important, for my son to hear and see - hear and see, that I am willing to do it myself, that I am not asking anything of him, that I am not willing to do or give - thus He knows, when I will ask it of him, next time, that it's beneficial for both sides and that I will not budge.....that he will have to follow suit, to reap the rewards, that it brings - and again, it boils down to the bottom line of life: OBEDIENCE to what the Holy Spirit tells us to do.

Please, my friends, please choose to obey the Holy Spirit at all times, we all can't afford to not obey any more - the stakes are too high - the times are far too dark, for all of us, who believe, to look the other way, or to procrastinate - we have to stand up for what we believe, to be the light we can be and are called to be to those around us, who have not found the Love and the Light, Christ came to bring all these many Christmases ago. Let's bring the Miracle of Christmas back into the world again.

Join me, my friends, I pray, you won't regret it, I promise - In the Mighty Name of my precious Saviour and friend.

Be blessed my sweet friends - Merry Christmas to y'all